This past week has been huge for me. I have worked through some blocks that I have held on to for as long as I can remember.
I launched my Mindful Mummies website into the world! For many people, this may not be something huge. Come on how many people have websites?! However, for me this was a really big achievement. I had so many emotional blocks stopping me from doing this earlier. My inner critic was telling me over and over again -
I am not creative enough
People are not interested in what I have to say
I will be judged
I don’t know how to express myself with words
My website and what I have to say will be a complete failure
No wonder I didn’t want to start my website! This whole time I knew I was ignoring my intuition. That inner knowing that this was something that I needed to do. That little voice that was kind and compassionate telling me that I could actually do this and that it was something that I needed to do. I decided to finally listen to this voice and start creating. After a couple of days of hard work and persistence, I finally launched my website.
What I know now is that launching this website was only the start of me working through these emotional blocks. This morning after meditating, all of the answers came to me. I have always been fearful of expressing myself through words, as written words can easily be taken the wrong way. I have always worried that my spelling and grammar would not be perfect. I was worried that I would not be “perfect”, not even “good enough”. Whoa!!!! Light bulb moment.
I remembered all of the times when I felt like I was “not enough”. One very clear memory is the time I sat in my very first psychology lecture and felt like I was a fraud for being there. I compared myself to everyone around me; and the belief that I was not “smart” enough to be there completely consumed me.
I have not always had the confidence that I do now. I have not always felt worthy and I most certainly have not always valued myself. My belief patterns have completely changed over the last two years. I now believe with confidence that I am worthy and that I deserve to treat myself with respect. I still have my inner critic (we all do) who pops up to challenge me daily but I now understand this voice and why it is there. I now work with my inner critic rather than against it.
If you are stuck where I was once was, please know that it doesn’t have to be this way. You have the power to change your negative thought patterns and old belief systems. You are worthy to live a life of confidence and self-respect. Change isn’t going to happen overnight and that is okay. Taking small steps each day to be kinder towards yourself will lead you in the right direction. When we don’t feel worthy or confident, we block ourselves from reaching our true potential. How are you blocking yourself from living the life you want?